Love

You sometimes have to take a step back and think, “in this life am i worth suffering for the love I want or for the love that I am receiving” If my demon keeps tearing my life apart with his sweet lies of comfort am I to run or am I to stay and keep fighting the same battle I’ve dealt throughout my life. In my opinion, you are to stand by your own and vanish that demon away. You will never grow if you have him whispering in your ear. You can’t let the demon that made you cry, worry, and scare control your life and the ability of you growing as an individual. The demon has taken your identity, it has taken your value, and has snatched the feeling of ACTUALLY being loved and feeling loved the right way. With respect, honor, and faithfulness. I am too young to understand the meaning of true love but I know that you shouldn't suffer more than being happy. Our demons don’t make us see brighter days but what really does confuse me is when you identify the demon and how much harm it’s done to you, and still stay. why stay? I chuckle at the idea of being that naive to let a demon that's done so much harm back into my life. But what makes me the most uneasy is being identified as a friend that might not understand the chaos of what the person might be going through. Which is bs, I've sat, answer 3am calls to the same cries and for the same reason, I’ve been there patiently waiting till the demon finally disappear, what I finally realize is that the sweet lies I got told about being “done” is nothing but bullshit and tiring. But I've stopped and started thinking, why am I so angry? is it because I am tired of the unending story? that I've been lied to? my friendship isn't being value like how I want it to be? or because I don't want to see how the story ends? I am a great friend, a very understanding one.That's been through hell and back whit the people i care the most about. so what are you?